It’s not you… it’s me?

4 Nov

I’ve been kinda bummed all night. Same problem as always. It’s like it’s just neverending.

No, I’m not okay with where we are because I thought things would be different, but there’s nothing I can do.

I always imagined this being different. I’m not the crude person everyone perceives me to be. At heart, I’m a hopeless romantic, y’know? And I pictured a totally different scenario than this.

I don’t want to be unfair and set expectations that are too high like I did before, but now I’m afraid I’m just hurting myself because maybe I should be expecting more and he just doesn’t get it, in which case I will forever set myself up for failure because I have no self-respect.

It just sucks. There really isn’t any other way to put it. Things weren’t supposed to be like this, but they are. Nothing changed. We’re still in the exact same situation as before.

Two people who awkwardly sit in the library during an open period and occasionally get caffeinated beverages together.

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