Archive | April, 2012
28 Apr

But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that’s just fabulous.

Oh, Carrie Bradshaw, never were you more right!

I think this is the reason why I haven’t been able to be happy yet. I think one bad relationship really fucked me over and made me feel inadequate. That relationship forced me into these depths I never thought I could reach. During that relationship, I willed myself to change for someone who was not deserving. NEVER will I make that mistake again.

Cheers to finding the true you and the person who will embrace you for all your quirks, beauty, weaknesses, passion, and – most importantly – your willingness to love and be loved.

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It’s been a to…

26 Apr

It’s been a tough few weeks. I’m holding on still because I have to, but it’s so hard to feel discouraged. I think this is that utter despair that I heard so much about.

And yet, I am so unbefuckinglievably proud of myself for going through all of this, waking up at 5 in the morning when the alarm goes off, making the commitment to actually fight for my future. So many people before (and after) me chose to take the easy way out. I guess we’re all motivated differently and some people want a pat on the back for every thing they do right. Is that something I would appreciate? Yes. But in my life, I’ve learned that just making it is enough of a reward in itself. I don’t need to be validated.

I know I need help. I’m not afraid to ask for it. I just don’t want this to become something where I relied on other people and an institution that grade inflates like a motherf***** to get me places in life. When I work my ass off, I know I’ll get what I deserve.

You can run and tell that homeboy.

“Is Berkeley really that cutthroat?”

8 Apr

I tried to give you a chance and tried to be your friend, but bitch please…

You didn’t even get in. What gives you the right?

And yes, I’m busting my ass over here to get a D+ but I’m still a million times happier than I was when I was with you.

You can run and tell that, homeboy.